Isaiah 41:10

This scripture took years for me to really understand.

Pain and anger blinded me from seeing Your hand.

I had assumed You cared about others but not about me.

I thought I was too hopeless for You to set free.

I thought the abusers in my life made me so unclean,

that not even by You, I would be seen.

Hence, why I questioned a lot in Isaiah 41:10.

I didn't see how You helped me even way back then.

I have cried my heart out to You and yelled as well.

I've begged for answers only You could know and tell.

While I waited for You, I heard the echoes from my pain.

Or sometimes I'd close my eyes and see us dancing in the rain.

I have seen through the years, Your promises are true.

I wouldn't be here right now if it wasn't for You.

Life doesn't look like You let me have my own way.

I once expected that to be the outcome after I pray.

Your mighty hand is what kept me alive through it all.

You hold my hand tight, even when I start to fall.

I do not fear my life now; my trust is in You.

I know whatever happens, You will get me through.