Warriors Reflection

Five steps forward; one step back.

Determination is what I sometimes lack.

Every time I go in reverse, lies fill my head.

I'm told I am hopeless and better off dead.

I feel hope for me at times, others do too.

But I find hope scary...if only you knew.

But without hope, there is nothing to be had.

I would have to be okay with just being sad.

My reflection then changes. No girl to be seen.

Instead, a warrior ready to battle enters the scene.

The hopeless girl is hidden inside to pray;

while my warrior self forbids the enemy to stay.

Now that the battle is won,

it is time to mend the harm done.

There are battle scars and lots of tears shed.

But no!! I am not hopeless NOR better off dead!

I will fight because God has equipped me.

He has already overcome the enemy.

I just want my life to be one God can use.

That's why I cannot forfeit and choose to lose.